Today is Thanksgiving. I had wanted to be in Pensacola today but because the brat works on Saturday, I changed my plans. I'll still be with family as I am driving down to Columbus (actually Fort Mitchell, AL) to share the day with my neice and her family. I'm going to enjoy myself considering I didn't have to cook. I wonder if her husband knows any single army guys he can invite .....lol
Today is even more momentus for my youngest. Her donater's family lives in the area so I will be dropping her off to spend some time with them. They have no seen her since she was a little over a year old. I take my share of the blame. Back then I was a bitter bi...err woman because not one but two me had left me high and dry to rear to children alone. At the time, his family claimed to not know where he was or how to contact him. I believed this to be a total lie as I could not grasp that to be possible. I mean I may have wanted away from my family but I kept in touch and they always knew where I was and how to find me. The ties broke when m ex's grandmother wanted to come get the girls for a weekend. I will give them their due as they spent as much time with the oldest even though she's not their biological family. That being said, not only was I bitter but I was hugely paranoid. I said no and never heard from them again. I was remiss in maintaining contact with them and the did the same. Eighteen years later, her uncle finds her on facebook and they have been having a long distance relationship.
Yeah well later I'm dropping her off to spend the day or at least some time with them. Not sure how I feel about that. The mother in me does not want to leave her with them. I don't want to hang out with them but I don't exactly want to be around them for more time than I have to. Could this have to do with some lingering resentment over my ex having told me they disliked me on the spot? Oh hell yeah it does. I've worked through a lot of my issues but that's more because I had the chance to confront the catalyst. I should let it go but I've never been able to accept someone condeming me when they don't know me. Especially when there a bond such as I have in this situation.
So what am I going to do? I'm going to go buy a cake to take to my neice's. She told me not to bring anything but Theresa would thrash in her grave if I did that. Then I will drive the 2 hours it takes to get to Columbus and drop the brat off. Then my very active imagination will kick in and I'll worry over what's happen and how she's doing. I hope my neice has some alcohol.
